When I soak in the presence of the Lord and I dwell on what this song means to me, I think of the bumps in the road , narrow spots and smooth parts. I think of His love for me and what it really means. I block out what the darkness has told me and I open up what the Light has shown me. I find myself dancing amongst guardian angels then sometimes, I find myself stepping into darkness and seeing threw eyes that couldn't be my own. The words "I know that You are for me" echo threw the darkness as I look around and see hurting people and then I go back to the brokenness my soul longs to heal but can't because that's not in my hands and then I look around and I feel my saviors wings shielding me from the darkness I might and might not face but not on my own. Then I look up and hear Teal Merrick asking us to play our own song that speaks to us and I hear this song being played in my head like it had been playing all along on my Ipod with the ear phones stuck in my ears.
Psalm 30:12
"To the end that my glory may sing praise to You and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give thanks to You forever."
This year the Lord has called me to step out into the unknown! Because I've always had a voice to sing, He's reminded me of that. 5th grade was about the time I thought I was going to totally give up on singing. Last year somehow I realized I never really gave it up. I still dreamed of singing in front of millions and millions of people like Kari Jobe or Molly Anderson...etc whether I realized it or not. I knew I had a deep desire, but yet I still thought I wasn't made to do it. Till I had an opportunity to be in a choir, then I knew that I needed to at least try it. I tried out, sang "This Blood" By Molly Anderson and made it. I knew singing in front of my choir teacher (Valerie Kent) that when she started swaying to the song, I was in. God is a gracious God, He gave me a choice between fulfilling my passion or not fulfilling my passion. He knew I hadn't decided yet and He also knew if the opportunity came I wouldn't hesitate. He waited patiently till He knew I was ready to move out of my comfort zone. Point is, He comes in ways we will understand that He is for us...He comes to remind us of who He is and how Big He is. It's awesome to see Him WOW us and WOW others!:)
Psalm 2:7-8
" I will declare the decree: The Lord has said to Me, 'You are My Son, Today I have begotten You. Ask of Me, and I will give you the inheritance, And the ends of the earth for Your possession."
Sometimes we forget who He is and we just walk on by....we sometimes forget that He is by our sides during the tough times and good times. We sometimes forget to say "thank you Lord!" for the good things instead we say "help me!" when things are tough. As I sit here playing the song "you are for me" I'm constantly reminded of this very thing. But God loves us threw it all, that's the good thing....He doesn't think anything about I,t He excepts us as we are on the way to where were going. We are human making mistakes daily and learning new things all the time. Another good thing is He's constantly teaching us what He knows we need to know. He's our own teacher and He loves us more than any other teacher might! He wants the best for us and He never gives us anything that we can't handle.
Isaiah 40:31
" But those who wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint."
Wild at heart
"I know that You are for Me"!!!:)
