Wild at heart: 2013-11-10

11/8/13

5 months ago today I stepped in a world called YWAM where my life has forever changed! I have been turned around completely to what God says about me instead of what the flesh would say, worked thru stuff I never thought was there and would ever think God wanted to work on because I thought it was "fixed" when it wasn't. No, I'm not perfect yet nor will I ever be, but I'm free to be me now more than ever. And maybe this is just the beginning of feeling completely free. Today I graduate from DTS! I'm sad that something so awesome ended so quickly! So many adventures and good times are rolling thru my head and seem to give me a sick feeling that I will have to say goodbye to all of this today. But I know God wants me back and so He is teaching me that it is not/nor ever will be a "goodbye" anymore but a "see you soon". This season I'm walking out of today will be a season that has forever changed me! I will never be the same! I'm going home today with the awareness that I am changed and won't be understood more than likely and more than likely wont understand much of what I used to anymore. I'm aware that I will have to give myself grace when my spirit is stirred over something little someone does just because in the missionary field it would be seen differently. My world will never be the same and I'm happiest with it that way. Even as the tears roll down my face as I write this, it's happy and sad tears. Happy that I'm not the same and never will be. Sad because I think of all the circumstances that broke my heart and then I look at my life and feel what words can't describe at the moment. I feel a very strong calling to come back in the spring and do phase II so that I can be on staff here in Denver. I think from there my dreams of some sort of counseling ministry will begin. God is in control!

I'm excited! I'm happy!

But most importantly I'm ready to see my awesome family!

I would also like to thank my family, extended family and friends of friends of friends for supporting me financially and encouraging me to pursue my God given dream. I couldn't have done it without y'all! You truly are blessings to not only me but to the people I got to bless on this trip as well because of you. Thank you!

Prayer request:

It's a blessing to have gotten back from the Philippines when I did cause of a Typhoon that hit there this week. My heart hurts for the people there and I can't help but picture a few people I spoke into going thru that.

I hope that you all can join me in prayer for Cebu, The Philippines.